My father always lived by these pearls of wisdom which has always resonated with me:
- God helps those who help themselves.
- When you hear of others woes you are glad to have your own.
- God never gives us more than we can handle.
A daily meditation book states for January 12th, ‘Today I pray that I may receive strength in the knowledge that God never gives us more than we can bear, that I can always, somehow, endure present pain, whereas the rituals of a lifetime, condensed into one disastrous moment, would surely overcome me.’
Then what happened to me? Where was the disconnect if I believed I always thought this true? On the same date the book also states ‘When I sit quietly and compare my life today with the way it used to be, the difference is almost beyond belief’.
Today when I reflect back I am in disbelief of what I went through back then. I am not healed. I am still disabled. Everyday, every hour I must make a conscious effort to curb negativity and to tell myself life is worth living. But my spiritual connection is more profound after hitting rock bottom and picking myself back up again. I gave up before out of desperation and immense pain. I told God I was ready to surrender and put myself in his arms. I believe he took me in but my time on earth was not through. So here I am a changed more healthier person who is more adept at managing life and hopefully contributing to society.
