I have been having more concern here lately about my lack of happiness in general. They say money cannot buy you happiness which is true but it certainly can help steer you in the right direction. In my treatment through cognitive behavioral therapy it was stressed that recognizing what you are grateful for will lessen negativity which it truly does. Everyday I live my life more aware of what I am grateful for. But that shroud of discontent I never seem to get rid of adversely affects my happiness. Whether I am at home being disengaged or out and about having to be on my toes I cannot shake it. This is how depression affects me along with the anxiety and irritability. We as an American society feel as though we are owed certain standards in life but we are not. I believe that this could be part of my problem. I don’t I have it when I think I should. But I am owed nothing.
I am grateful for most of all that has happened to me because I do not know what is the grand scheme of things but what I do know is that I am in a better position now than I have ever been before despite battling depression and lack of happiness. I must concentrate on the progression of my journey and find peace where I am now in order to allow happiness to manifest inside me.