Choose Joy by Kay Warren asks us what is holding us back from living a life of joy. Mine is fear and the anxiety that comes with it. The book defines joy as the settled assurance that God is in control of all the details of my life, the quiet confidence that ultimately everything is going to be all right, and the determined choice to praise God in all things. For me I cannot trust in God that he knows what is best for me, although I am getting better about this by the day. The phrase God helps those who help themselves sticks with me. What is the balance of control? Where is the peace of knowing that I am doing my part? How risky is it that I embark on a new career direction? Do I have enough talent to be a contender and enough marketing skills and showmanship to stand out from the crowd? I do not know these things unless I try. I cannot try unless I investigate what venues would be appropriate for me. My mind is open to options and possibilities where a year ago I thought I had none. My artwork has allowed me to see options. There is joy in knowing that pastels is a gift that I have that no one can take away from me.