It was spoken at the 12 step meeting at Skyland Trail the other day that drinking one drink was never enough. After that statement I had an A hah moment. How the 12 step program can identify with my unhealthy sense of never having enough in life. A sense of contentment has always alluded me since I am constantly thinking the grass must be greener on the other side and I lack the appreciation for what I already have and fail to be within the moment. My anxiety level would diminish if I was able to be more content in the present rather than worrying about how I might be feeling in the future when I don’t have a clue what the future even will be. This is a struggle I unfortunately embody and can never remember not having. Out of all the years of therapy I have had, I cannot seem to overcome this dilemma which has gotten me into trouble several times before.